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Hijacked!

By Emily Schwartz Kemper

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Learning to Test Negative Assumptions

by Eli Davis

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Clearing Emotions Can Be a Daunting Task

by Carole Marmell

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By Charles Shaw

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Act Out of Values Rather than Emotions

By Ashleigh Gardner-Cormier

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I Need to Understand Where She's Coming From

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Testing! Testing! Digging Deeper into Initial Resistance to Change

By Erika Young

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Goal: Create A Culturally Responsive Organization

By Sylvia R. Epps

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Introducing New Ways of Thinking into a Risk-Averse Organization

By Melissa Simon

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Dashed Hopes and Expectations

By Tracy Forman

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How Do I Deal with a Hostile Work Environment?

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Compassion Wins the Day

By Treshina Smith

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Anticipate a Certain Amount of Resistance

By Mary H. Beck

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Can Anyone Be a Social Worker? The Challenge of Correcting Misinformation

By Alicia Beatrice

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What You See Depends on the Lens You Use

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Choosing a Career Can Be Emotional Work!

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Learning to Test Negative Assumptions

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Hijacked!

By Emily Schwartz Kemper

I had a report due by the end of the day and was feeling really pressed for time. I’d been working on it all afternoon and had come to an especially important section requiring my full concentration.

I heard “knock, knock” as my coworker, Keisha (a fictitious name) entered my office. “Where’s that list of clients? You promised you’d get it to me so I can get ready for tomorrow’s meeting.”

“I don’t have time for that right now!” I burst out angrily. “Can’t you see I’m busy?”

“Well, excuse me!” came her reply. “You were supposed to email it to me. Where is it? I can’t proceed without it.”

My pulse was racing; I wanted to cry in frustration. The exchange quickly deteriorated into a shouting match. Through gritted teeth, and with a great deal of resentment, I gave her what she needed, practically throwing it at her.

Stress Leads to Blame and Resentment

Keisha slammed my office door on her way out, a clue that she, too, was emotionally charged. We were both under a great deal of stress. The pressure each of us felt led to mutual emotional flooding and we ended up blaming one another.

Keisha was in her mid-50s, with health problems. She had missed quite a few workdays in the last month or so and was worried about her job status. I knew she felt pressure to demonstrate her capabilities to the rest of the staff. I also knew the client list was an essential part of what she needed to cover in the next day’s staff meeting. . . and I had failed to fulfill my promise to get her the list she needed.

But I didn’t take any of that into account in the emotionally flooded moment. I was enmeshed in my own anxiety, with a report due by the end of the day. If I was going to get it done, I had to stay focused. The information I had was important to Keisha and of course I’d promised to deliver, but that was before I fell behind on my own work. I resented Keisha for asking me to do something I felt I didn’t have time for.

Prior to this episode, Keisha and I hadn’t had any conflicts. In this interaction, however, became almost enemies, neither interested in the needs of the other.

When she interrupted me, my “fight or flight” emotional state kicked in and I did what she wanted, then blamed her for my inability to standup for myself and my own priorities. I recognized the emotion I was feeling in my chest as fear. I felt afraid—a position I’d been in many times. Rather than admitting my vulnerability and processing my fear in some way, I tried to stuff it back down inside of me and got stuck in it. This “stuckness” then manifested as feelings of anger and resentment.

Sadly, Keisha was let go soon after the incident, but by then our relationship had returned to normal, for the most part. We were cordial but didn’t really engage in any meaningful way. At one point, she asked my boss to tell me to stop being friends with a member of her staff, even though he had been my former intern. In response, I simply stopped talking with my former intern—again, acquiescing to someone else and not standing up for myself.

Dealing with a Flood of Emotions

In reading Reframing Change, I learned that many of my immediate responses were really about flight from past emotional experiences. I tend to freeze when a current event triggers negative emotions from the past. I feel as if I’m in danger, my emotions become flooded, and I shut down communications for fear of being hurt again.

Since that interaction with Keisha, I have found several methods effective in dealing with the emotional flooding. The first is to focus on my breathing whenever I feel my heart starting to race or my jaw clenching. I inhale slowly, as deeply as I can, then exhale as far as I can. I find this relaxes my emotional state enough to be able to pay attention to what is being said.

It also helps to take a break, a walk if I can. This allows me time to center myself, especially important when I am highly invested in the outcome of an interaction. The most effective way of clearing negative emotions learned from Reframing Change was to use the visual image of a balloon. I imagine I’m blowing all the negative emotions I feel into a balloon, then envision it floating away into the sky. I am a visual person, so this works well for me.

Had I used one of these emotional clearing techniques at the time of my unfortunate encounter with Keisha, I could have responded to her request in a more effective way. Instead, I immediately assumed she was being rude by interrupting me—surely, she’d seen how busy I was. That was the “answer” I provided to myself in the moment. What if I had moved to being in the question instead? I knew her worry and fear about her job security had heightened her emotions. I could have taken that into account in my response to her.

What Could Have Been

Now that more time has passed and I’ve reread Reframing Change, here is my idealized version of what could have happened if I had used the principles and skills of Conscious Change.

Keisha knocks on the door and asks, “Where’s that list of clients? You promised you’d get it to me so I can get ready for tomorrow’s meeting.”

I push my chair back and take a couple of deep breaths and exhalations before responding, “I’m sorry, would you mind waiting about twenty minutes so I can finish the report I’m working on? My stress level is high, and it’s difficult for me to stop when I’m in the middle of something. I know I promised to send it to you, and I will . .. as soon as I’m done with this report.”

She agrees and returns to my office a half hour later. Upon entering, she gives a deep sigh and sits down. The report is taking longer than I anticipated, so I minimize my computer screen and print out four copies of the client list.

“I really appreciate you taking the time to do this,” she says when I hand the copies to her. “I noticed you took a couple of deep breaths before responding to me earlier. You seemed to be having a lot of anxiety. That can be really hard.”

“Yes. Sometimes I really struggle to get control over it. And I find it hard to talk about.”

“It looks like you’re really working at it, though,” she says in what I recognize is an attempt to be supportive.

I nod, and then she says, “Thanks again. I’ll leave now so you can get back to your work.” She smiles as she walks away. I smile too, because we both seem to recognize how heated a situation can become when our emotions flood our minds and bodies.

A More Conscious Approach

After reflecting on this, I came away with several insights:

  1. Recognizing signs of emotional flooding will help me find ways to postpone responses or interactions until I have an opportunity to clear my emotions.
  2. When I feel signs of emotional flooding, I should ask for a five-minute break to practice my emotional clearing techniques.
  3. Lowering my voice and taking deep breaths during emotionally stressful situations may help me de-escalate them.
  4. I need to consider the viewpoints of coworkers in situations different from mine. Putting myself in the other person’s shoes may help me empathize with them, and hopefully lower my stress level.
  5. Staying in the question does not automatically make me a doormat.I can maintain my boundaries while being in the question.
  6. Becoming emotionally flooded on a regular basis may be a signal that I need to better manage the stress I’m experiencing. There are few reasons for me to continuously operate at such a high-stress level.

Recognize Emotional Flooding before It Washes Out Reason (Reflections on Emily’s Story)

Haven’t we all been there? The interaction between Emily and Keisha is more common than most of us like to admit, especially under high-stress working conditions. Too often both parties to interactions are under extreme stress and take it out on one another.

Emily and Keisha were both emotionally flooded, their intense emotions overriding any hope of a rational and positive outcome of their interaction. Not only was Emily emotionally hijacked, but her outburst led to Keisha becoming hijacked as well.

Unaddressed emotions commonly result in unaddressed relationship issues. The workplace interactions of Emily and Keisha could have been much more positive if they had tried to clear up their blowup afterward. Instead, they went from having a single explosive but short-lived conflict to having a more passive, ongoing conflict.

The ongoing conflict was illustrated by Keisha’s complaint to the supervisor about Emily’s relationship with the intern. By simply ceasing communication with the intern, Emily missed an opportunity to go into inquiry with Keisha—seeking to understand what was driving her request, what impact Emily’s continuing friendship with this former intern was having on Keisha. Neither the incident nor their relationship was discussed or examined.

Only later did Emily learn and practice some techniques for clearing her negative emotions: she talks about having learned to take breaks, to inhale deeply, and to utilize visualization.

Becoming aware of the impact of emotional flooding is the first important step. It may be unrealistic, however, to believe that she could quickly develop the ability to clear her emotions in the moment, while the person who triggered the emotional hijack was still in the room.

Asking for a five-minute break may be the better choice in the short term. With practice, it is possible to shorten the time between recognition of the onset of emotional flooding and the ability to engage in necessary emotional release, i.e., to override the amygdala. If it is not possible to use an emotional clearing technique in the moment, it is important to do so as soon as possible following the triggering event to avoid a festering resentment.

Emily also now recognizes that taking time to clear her negative emotions allows her to step back from situations and question her conclusions about what’s going on. She sees that being in the question does not make her a doormat; instead, it gives her more choices.

Emily belatedly recognized her own contribution to the conflict—she’d failed to provide Keisha the information she needed, which Emily had promised to provide. She also came to understand the importance of putting herself in others’ shoes, of being more empathetic.

It is, of course, too late to remedy her relationship with Keisha, but hopefully her more recent understanding will keep her from experiencing relationship breakdowns with others.

Conscious Change Principles and Skills in This Chapter

  • Test Negative Assumptions
    • Move from the answer into the question
  • Clear Emotions
    • Avoid emotional suppression
    • Clear your negative emotions
  • Build Effective Relationships
    • Develop skills in inquiry and openness
  • Conscious Use of Self
    • Accept responsibility for your own contributions
    • Seek to understand others' perspectives

About Emily

Emily Schwartz Kemper received her master’s degree from the University of Houston Graduate College of Social Work. She studied Conscious Change skills in a leadership class taught by Dr. Jean Latting. She has enjoyed working in the nonprofit sector with homeless women struggling with mental health issues and substance abuse. Emily enjoys gardening, swimming, playing the piano, and spending time with her family—Gunther, Alex, and Fronia.